Insatiable Appetite for Life and Potential Issues.
Dr. Z explains the insatiable appetite during/after transition—where it comes from and why support systems don't understand.
When you start transitioning or complete transition (whatever completion means for you), you develop a desire to express yourself as much as possible—especially when you start cultivating confidence and reach the tipping point of truly seeing yourself the way you envisioned yourself, the way you've been seeing yourself inside for many years. Another tipping point happens: insatiable appetite for life.
This takes the form of running around doing everything you can get your hands on. You wake up every day needing to do something in relationship to who you are—go out and be seen and validated, get nails done, play a particular sport. You have to get yourself out there as if life is a kitchen timer, as if your days of being yourself are going to be yanked away.
This insatiable appetite comes from deep emotional and psychological hunger you've had for many years—arising from years of not being able to express yourself.
Strawberries analogy: You really want to eat strawberries (one of Dr. Z's favorite fruits). You've been wanting to eat them but held off for a big chunk of your life. Now suddenly you get access to strawberries. You're going to eat strawberries every single day until you get sick, then get well and eat strawberries again. You'll keep going until you have satiety within yourself—had enough strawberries—or until you realize strawberries are going to be there, they're not going to go away, they're not going to be taken away.
Watch to find out why this insatiable appetite breeds regrets (you regret years when you didn't have access or were afraid to reach out—painful when you're experiencing yourself daily, creates contrast to past life), why people around you won't understand (they're not having insatiable appetite, they're living lives, taking things for granted—they don't understand why you're obsessed with strawberries when they've had access all their life), and why finding support system who gets it is crucial.
